A picture is worth a thousand words
I have found the one and only word that fits the picture I see.... OUCH...That would be my heart breaking....
We are full speed ahead in school. My baby is REALLY adapting to school both in academics and social...More social than academics...but that is another story....
On the first day of school a lady was taking random pictures of the kids and then they posted them on the school website. Well, as I was looking through these pictures somewhat hoping to see my kids in one or two of the, I saw my baby in one of them. More as a background.....Really not supposed to be in the picture at all. And it absolutely stopped me in my tracks. I saw first hand the way he must have been feeling that day. Not knowing ANYONE...Sitting all alone while everyone around him was talking and having a good time. That would include his older brother that dropped him when he saw all HIS friends.....I still have trouble when I see this picture because it takes me back to a day I would love to forget. The "first" day of school....where they leave me and spend all day at school....
So, today, two months after the start of school, we had a middle school meeting. I'm sitting with two friends of mine each looking at our long list of items we wish to discuss with the principal. He walks in and opens with a word of prayer...Smart man..."How to tame a bunch of angry moms?"....PRAY....how do you argue with God......
He opens his computer and starts a powerpoint on all the things we are going to discuss. And there it was....The picture I have tried SO hard to get out of my head was staring my in the face the entire meeting. Out of all the thousands of pictures he had to choose from, why that one......I found that I focused more on that sad face than the meeting itself.
The saving grace is my son is now really loving school and surrounded by a lot of friends that he has a good time with. Now, I have to try to forget that face I saw that day. We all have days where we have to experience "first"....First day of school, first job, first apartment, first time we leave our Mom....etc....I do know that face will show up again ....However, the hardest thing for me is it will soon be the face without his mother picking him up at the end of the day. He will all too soon be gone from me. But for today.............I've gotta go break into the school and delete that picture from their database...I don't ever want to see that one again.....
Look at the kid behind the kid on the right...that is my son...looking straight ahead......
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