MOTHER OF BOYZ: Black Hair~Pick-up Truck~ & Home School

No this is not my mid~life crisis...And no, I'm not losing my mind....I have really been thinking this summer....I am closing a chapter of my life and it is really hard!!! I love being a Mom....I love my kids and love spending time with my kids...In fact, I would rather be with my kids and husband than with anyone else (other than sisters) I loved it when they were young and we didn't have the stress of schedules, school, heartaches, and life in general....

This has really been a hard summer....As I have said many times I still have the flip~house and the ware house that are not ready to sell....And school is just around the corner...In fact, today is August 1....We don't have the money to spend on vacations....All our time and money needs to go towards these two things....So, part of me is feeling guilty.....

I woke up one morning not to long ago and thought about what it would be like to home school the boys.....We could travel when we wanted to...It would only be for one year, we would save a lot of money on tuition, I would have my boys, We could learn at the pace they needed, less stress, no late night homework!!!!!! Many other reasons....

Then, I started thinking about Jonathan not getting to play football possibly for the last time, it's his 8th grade year~king of the school, he would miss his friends, Ryan wouldn't get to go to Brook Hill like he has wanted to for two years, and the biggest one....What if I failed at this......I defeat myself every time!!!

We sat down as a family and talked about this and the boys really want to go to Brook Hill....So, in our hearts, we know that is probably where they need to be....So, in two weeks, I will send my boys to school, hit the job market hard to find a job and hope I have flexible hours to be able to be with the boys when needed, and miss them like crazy!!!

Now, the pick~up....in order to shave off some debt, I traded my car and my husbands truck for a brand new Dodge Ram Hemi.....I can't believe I'm gonna be driving a truck....Actually, I'm okay with it...I love driving trucks...In case you don't know me, I am truly country....I walk around the house bare foot but not pregnant....

Finally, Black hair....I have been coloring my hair for some time now and last year I colored it a red tent....I actually really liked it and got several compliments on it...well, it was time to cover the roots, and wanted to make my husband happy (he likes my hair natural whatever that means) so I decided to go darker..only it went BLACK...I look like a 40 year old :) Gothic witch.....It is scary!!! I called Clairol's 800 hot line and she told me what to do...I would have to apply two applications....one of them being blond...I got scared...who are these "hot line" people? Do they really know what they are talking about, or are they just sitting there selling insurance or snuggies also......Needless to say, I am still dark...really dark...My husband really likes it...