Here it is, that dreaded time of Summers End...Time to once again replace flip-flops or better yet no shoes for, "Mom where are some socks".....Time to replace late night watching the Nanny and eating, to late night homework.......Time to replace waking up at day-break with my coffee and journal, to waking up the dead and getting them to school by 7:45.....Oh, I could go on, but I think you get the picture.....
This summer has been a weird one for us.....There were no expectations.....We didn't do anything "Big"....In fact, we really didn't do anything at all.....One really big thing for me was I woke up one morning early August and decided to Home school.....Now, that is a word we have heard in our house for many years....One thing I told my boys in May was if we don't sell our flip house or ware house, we will not be able to go back to the private school....Well, we haven't sold either one....However, God is so very good and some how has made a way for us to go....Now, not sure how we are going to pay for this because we haven't sold these two most money consuming items, but I have to let go and let GOD......I talked about homeschooling with my husband and he wasn't as excited as I thought he would have been....Don't get me wrong, he has wanted me to do this many times before....But looking back I NOW see why....I waited too late....They are not wanting to give up their "social" part of school.....So after three weeks of stressful home school vs. not......back and forth, we have decided to go ahead and continue with the private school.....Which means I have to go to work.....And I am okay with that...Hard thing is figuring out what it is I want to do.....
So, I'm sitting here on our last day of summer and my "to do" list is SOOO long, I know this day will fly by.....I suddenly feel the urge to have my house spotless before tomorrow...Not sure why, it is hardly ever clean....But I feel if your house is in order, every thing just falls into place....That is one area I would LOVE to change....I even have a folder labeled "organize" with many great ideas on how to get there and stay there.....but, I don't do it.....Fly Lady needs to come visit me again.....
It has been a pretty good summer....My sister and her family came for a visit...That is always a highlight......And mostly just hung out...Doing nothing...And sometimes, nothing is good....Because I feel our lives are about to get really busy....and I am quickly getting less and less of my children....Now that breaks my heart......Maybe I should start a new folder labeled, "how to let go"......
So, I will go and start my last day....I will soak up all the time with my precious boys....and I can bet you, tomorrow there will be an ache in my heart....My boys will be away from me and a part of me will hurt...I will stay busy to try to make that clock tick a bit faster.......And I'll try to make small talk with my precious husband who is just as emotional as I am about this dreaded day......and come 3:30, I will be so happy to be picking up my very tired boys to come home and start homework.......Wishing for summer all over again....
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