Well, to keep with tradition, I got the Christmas trees down along with the 3,000 boxes of decoration to go around the house and was ready to turn on the Christmas music and decorate with my boys eager to help..not....only I woke up and found myself all alone with the sound of a loud football game on T.V. okay, no Christmas music today...So, I thought I would go get my C.D.'s and put them on my Ipod..only, I packed the music away in the attic...WOW, I am not off to a good start....My trees didn't disappoint...as usual, half of the tree lights didn't work...Luckly, on our way home from Florida last year I bought several boxes of lights for 75% off....Put the tree up, fixed the lights, put the bizillion decorations on the tree to the tune of "first down".....I stood back and noticed my tree leans...A LOT!!! Now, to fix this, I would have to take the breakable decorations off...Orrr, just leave it...I love leaning....Makes people think something isn't right...But won't dare say anything...well, unless you are my sisters....
I worked all day and decided to watch a Christmas show....I just love these shows...It doesn't matter how bad everything is in the character's lives, around Christmas time everything works out...Tonight I decided to watch "Christmas Shoes" because Jim's son and whole family is in the musical in Lubbock and we are going...Now, why in the world would I ever even start this movie...I know how this ends...I even lived that show...But I guess I'm a little like the person that would drive up on an accident and someone says, "Don't Look" (and,of course, I do) soooo....I sat there and cried harder than I have in a long time....my boys and Jim cried...
The one thing that stuck out in that show was at the end where the son is at his Mother's grave and he is all grown up....All I could think is how was he changed the day his Mother died...because you are (and rarely, for the good)....I know my life would have been so different if Mother were still here with me....Mainly, I wouldn't have a leaning Christmas Tree..she would have helped me take everything off and fixed it...she was like that....I miss her so much....
I think this time of the year is and always will be so very hard. Because when you watch movies you know can't happen....a little part of you wishes that could happen to you....I guess that is why I liked Christmas Shoes so much....It didn't end up being a dream where everyone is happy and together...It deals with death...Real life situations....
My hope this Christmas season is that my boys and Jim and I really can slow down long enough to enjoy each other....not be so busy stressing over that one gift that will so be forgotten.....Because all too soon, our lives will be over and we will have to say goodbye....But will have many memories to help us smile through the hardest parts of missing each other....
May you have a Blessed Christmas and Happy Leaning Tree......
1 comment:
Well, you need to put a hankie alert on that one. In typical Nessa-style, you brought laughter to my lips and tears to my eyes.
I miss her too. But I'm not really too sure she was tall enough to help with the whole tree-thing... sometimes our memories can be a little fuzzy....
I love you.
Karen
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